Mr.cucumber

hey there,

I wonder if ever anything would bring you over here.

how's your life?

is it feels good?

or much better back then?

writing this because you know exactly how I feel..

How I can just have the conversation in my mind...

How I just have tiny line between your life and mine?

I just can scroll over the screen

keep the conversations save in the hard disk

Printed out all the pictures..

keeping all the things in the box.

I guess I should keep my mind instead,.

I wish my mind have the delete button.

and the rewind button stop functioning

It's not because I'm regretting 

but it's because I feel the pain.

the pain that I have to make myself realize that I can't even call you mine.

I thought that you already had totally erase my data in your big head

being blind from seeing me

or I'm just the one who turns to an invisible girl

well,I guess I was wrong this time

I know you're still looking at my profile back then

still looking at the texts that you kept with no reply,

Well, I'm kidding, 

this is just my imagination that I put my hopes on,

But it's happening inversely 

You know, you're on my mind like I really wanna erase you by distracting myself 

Trying to join my friends talking about others,

avoid listening to our lovely songs,

favorite movies and colors

I have done everything to erase the data,

somehow the more I'm deleting, you keep appearing in my dream

still mentioning your name in my prayer, man

because I don't even know how to skip your name and your family.

I prefer to pray alone where I can cry to God 

to express everything I keep inside,

even-though I know He knows everything.

the latest dream was 2 days ago.

I was thinking that you're forgetting my birthday.

but I received a card in my dream

"I don't forget about you.. " with our favorite number.

Woke up with sweat because I was so shocked. 

again

It was just a dream

Hey there you beautiful creature,

I know both of us at our own turning point

Maybe I couldn't reach this to you,

but if you did .

if you manage to come over here.

Note that , you need to come back when all the things are right

When the things are ready

because you know how the heart wants what it wants.

come back when you're ready.

Not sure about me in future.

because my expectation always wrong.

Like I did on our future.

even if you're not with me one day, May Allah grand you with the best person because you deserve.

I once told you that, love is about sacrifices and now I'm showing you how to do it

If you ever feel alone. Talk to God. I'm doing the same things too.

TIPS: HOW TO DO THE CONTENT EVALUATION ?

Bismillah Alhamdulillah

Assalamualaikum and hello peeps.. 

Nowadays, we always keep sharing all the information that we gained. Yes, that's good. Pretty sure that everyone will participate in this 'sharing event' because we want people around us to keep updated. 

News, religions, politics, entertainments, sports and etc, are the frequently issues shared by us through many ways ; twitter, Facebook, Whats-app and even Blogging * Like what am I doing right now*

the only thing that we need to do is click the share button, and yeah, the issue appears on your timeline and public are able to read them and even share them to their circles of friend.

What made me came out with this tips is because I feel so sad to see my own nation being fragmented by the information that they actually gained randomly without doing any research about the actual declaration from the authority involved. *telan bulat bulat atau percaya seketoi-seketoi orang kedah kata*

since people are getting so excited to share the 'current news' 

Let's discuss what are the steps to be taken before....we spread the news

So, what we should do before we click the share button? the copy button or before we have faith with the statements or news?*then we start to give the argument to others confidently*

okay

here, I would like to share some knowledge that I actually gain from a valid resource  [computing essentials 2015 by Timothy J. O'Leary/ Linda I.O'Leary /Daniel A. O'Leary]

*and I did some additional verb and explanation in order to avoid you from being sleepy*

we already know that our world now is just about one click. One click and you'll have million of related search in just 0.02 seconds. Crazy right?

we all know that search engine are the excellent tools to locate the information on the web. We just need to click some keyword then, they will provide you with the related links.

However, we can't rely 100% on the information that we gain on the internet. WHY?

Because everyone is allow to publish anything, ANYTHING on the internet,...not all the information that you gain in the internet is according to the strict guideline to ensure the accuracy...No they don't.

Most of them are just based on their opinion, their what-if assumption, their gossips, their emotion     * just like my blog*

There are a lot of site which allow anonymous to post anything on their site such as Wikipedia.org .

how to make sure that the content is valid? 

We must know how to filter the content by using this four step in evaluating content :

• Authority. 

Do you really know the author?you know me?  *unless you're the community around me-.-*so ask yourself. does the author an expert in the subject area. [example: should a fisherman talk about research on economies? yeah he can, but will people have full faith on his statement? definitely not. It's not because he is just a fisherman. open your eyes. what I mean is, this is not his expert subject..so people won't believe.]

 Is that site is an official site or it just individual's personal website like me? *who always share unrelated things which come randomly..*

• Accuracy

Even if the website is an official one, they still will have some false fact. Because it's only a normal human being who authored the official website. They might gave some false information. However, this information can be corrected whenever they share their contact information which we can ask them if there are any questions to be argue.

Has the information been critically review for correctness prior to posting on the web? Does the website provide a method to report inaccurate information to the author? Ask yourself.

• Objectivity

This is the important part which we should identify before we strictly believe it. This is the main reasons why people are blaming each other. Irresponsible author usually spread bad news in order to destroy someone's career and more. As the "smart reader", we should take note on this. Is the information is a factually reported or does the author have a bias? *like me, of course I'm being bias to myself -.- LOL* Does the author appear to have their personal agenda aimed at convincing or changing the reader's opinion. Well, usually this is related to politics but I don't want to talk more about this endless issue. 

• Currency

No one want to be left behind....so what should we do when we search some issue on the web?.... Is the information is up to date? Does the site specify the date when the site was updated ? Are the site's links operational? If not , the site is most likely not being actively maintained. [example: you're trying to search for the best gadget. without specifying the years, you'll probably have theinformation of the best gadget in 1998 which is Motorola *hat flip flip zeti dalam sembilu kasih tu pakai* instead of the iphone 6,7,8,9,10 etc..] 

okay people, that's all for today, Be a smart person. Don't spread the junk, we have the smart devices but it's actually producing idiot people if we don't try to use them in the right way

adios. if you have any arguments. *LOL* just put them in the comment box and I'll try to respond. This is just some sharing moment about how to evaluate the content on media *yang laju gila spread ni* 

annyeong

mind blowing *Omgosh 

emi

DISCUSSION : JEALOUSY IN FRIENDSHIP

Bismillah, Alhamdulillah,

back to my topic,is it normal to feel a little bit jealousy in our friendship? I mean like this is the friendship between the same gender. Have you ever feel this way whenever your closest best buddy hang out with others? Have you ever getting jealous whenever your best friend treat someone else much better than she treat you *or equally* ?

I noticed myself often get jealous, as I can feel it obviously since I was in a primary school. However this is not the problem regarding sexual attraction to my own gender because I once had a boyfriend lol. And I did the same things to my ex which I was so protective *overly attached* like I should put him in the bubble if and only if I can, I'll definitely will.*so nobody would take him away* LOL

P/s: okay but that was not my intention talking about the thing that we can't do in my religion as it is consider as zina*well, this might be some lesson as well for you to not get involve in any relationship before a marriage,* 

okay, focus on our discussion,for example, what will you feel when your best buddy find someone else instead of finding you to share her secret. For me, this is extremely too much. Deal with it, I don't know I will feel like someone else is going to steal my favorite person to share story with.

I have a principle that no one could be ever taking the person whom I love so much ; mommy and daddy *of course* ,my family, best buddies, my love , even my pets.

Maybe I was born as the benjamin in my family, so I became overly attached with them....*maybe

*define it yourself*

When I was in high school, I have a friend who had a bf like honestly she's being attached to him like sometime ignoring me because she's on the phone with that guy or anything else related...

I was like whattttt ? You're forgetting me just because of that guy? but I never show the feeling because I thought it is normal to have that kind of privacy and space from your buddy whenever you're in a relationship *like all the drama on tv*

this feeling is a continuous feeling until when I was in her shoe, we were in the reverse boat. When I once had a bf, she's the one who get jealous. She even crying lol. But I guess I never less care about her. I mean like we still study together, I hope that I didn't change at that moment. well,we'll never realize our mistake..

*she used to give me that look*haha

so I guess jealousy in friendship or any relationship is normal. We're afraid to lose someone that we love right. It doesn't mean that you're a lesbian or gay just because of the normal feeling God gave you right?

you just need to control yourself and never involve with the love that Allah has forbidden in the Quran.

nauzubillahiminzalik.

"Nor come nigh to adultery : for it is a shameful (deed) and an evil, opening the road (to the other evils) "

Al-Isra ,32

so,would you like to share your story with mine regarding to our topic today? 

Do leave your comment down below and let me have some coffee while reading your stories.

Adios. thanks for reading and do click the advertisements :)

kekadang penat

kekadang,
penat jadi baik,
bila kau baik,
orang tindas kau,
kau saja kena jaga hati orang,
orang selalu lupa kau pun ada hati,
orang lupa kau tak tuli,
orang lupa kau boleh berkecil hati,


kekadang tu,
penat jadi happy go lucky,
sebab orang anggap kau langsung takda perasaan,
anggap kau tu jenis tak terasa,
but the only reason you're happy,
is just because you know how's the sad feeling is actually

kekadang tu,
penat jadi concern,
sebab apa?
bila kau susah,
dia tak concern pun,
langsung tak nak dengar cerita kau,
kau boleh baca je dari mimik muka dia,
mengantuk, mata sepet,
tapi takpa,
dia tetap pinjamkan kau telinga dia,
walaupun telinga tu hanya sebagai laluan,
kata kata kau untuk menembusi otaknya,
otak yang langsung tiada nota tentang kau,
otaknya yang hanya ada dirinya,

kekadang tu,
penat sangat,
tapi jangan berhenti buat baik,
sebab manusia manusia yang ada dibumi ni,
bukan hakim kau diakhirat,
buatlah baik walau kau lelah,
nanti Tuhan yang menentukan,
segala penat lelah kau,
jaga hubungan sesama manusia,
yang banyak ragam.


nukilan

DISCUSSION : Should I sacrifice my 3 months?

Bismillah, alhamdulillah..
assalamualaikum...guys, I don't know but the journey is getting tougher than I've ever thought it will be.
I'm still a matriculation student in one of the cfs in Malaysia, unlike my ex-schoolmates. senang cerita, I failed to exempted from arabic*when taking the test during our last orientation* and I have to agree with my 2 years study plan.

2years so I have a lot of free time, especially during my sem 1 and sem 2 and my short sem.
but unluckily, the study plan is getting tougher for the last two semester

LIFE : LA FEMMES

Bismillah Alhamdulillah,

Hello guys, today I just would like to share a story about this mega Saturdate <3

Okay. Today is the only day for sisters ! So no guy. sorry not sorry guys

"Living under the same roof, most of the time just stress me out because you must take care of this, and that, so we need to chill up sometimes"

p/s:  Oh, we live in one hostel over here because the other mahallah*hostels* are still under the construction.
can you imagine how the girls have to deal with the guys when they keep playing futsal at the court days and nights*which located at the middle of our mahallah building ?*

hahaha. But still I love the environment

while I'm typing this entry, still I can hear them shouting among them -.-" *that's so annoying sometime*

okay, let me start

we woke up today as a normal Muslim by performing our Subuh prayer and continued our routine by reading al-mathurat to ask the blessing from Allah The Almighty.

Later, at 7.30 am, an announcement was made to gather all the sisters at the back of

 block D because we're going to held the "senamrobik" session.

It's like the girls are dancing happily :) 

then, we were separated into different activities. some of them join running woman, masterchef, sewing etc. what about me? I did join the grooming session by Fedora.Beauty #you can find this account on instagram#

but this is not my point actually, 

I just wanna share a story about my friends, who joined masterchef just now and yeah , they did it !!!

*IMAGE WAS DELETED*

These are my bebigel, Ain with the red tudung and Fatimah in purple :)

*focus*

*so guys, Tim and Ain should be short-listed ;)*

*IMAGE WAS DELETED*

so neat and clean, I can't join them to give my support because I attended the grooming session *sigh*

Zooooommmmm innn.. Tada :P

and this is for their effort :) 

congratulations babies. You go girls

adios ! Click the ads pulish

LIFE : ICT PROJECT

Bismillah Alhamdulillah.

hello and assalamualaikum guys, Do you still remember that I have told you how am I feeling when learning about the ICT ?

yeah and according to our syllabus, we need to hand out a few projects to gain our carry marks for the final examination. *sigh*

It was tiring moment yet my divergent girls and I had learn a really great cooperation in order to successfully published our short film.

at first, our mind were totally blank when our sir gave us the theme for the video: "LIFE DESTINY"

It's like a really heavy tittle and I'm not really sure. It's probably become a really cliche drama like all the television channel keep playing them. 

But first, Let me introduce you my divergent girls,

1. the director is Fatimah 

2. the editor is Ain

3 the camerawoman is Adlin

4. everyone is the actress

Okay

Let's make things become interesting, after a really long discussion and a month of preparation we came out with this short film, alhamdulillah. We did it.

Its so touched to hear the responses from your college mates saying that they're touched with the sad story line *which we as the crew find it so funny during the shooting*

Alhamdulillah again and all praised to Allah

and the synopsis goes like this

"there is a girl named Salsabila who once are so close with Ayesha . Not long after that, they were separated due to Ayesha's parents have their promotion and need to move to Alexandria...

and day by day, Salsabila felt the loneliness in her life. Her parents were so busy with their careers and leave the family torn apart..Salsabila became stress-out of all the things because she used to be loved by everyone around her. but life changes........."

well, it won't be a surprise if I tell you the whole synopsis right???

hahahaha I'm sorry but all you guys need to do is to watch them on YouTube and make sure that you're going to put down your comments below. Let me know if you liked it or no. and if you have any ideas about any story line and you want the divergent(my crews) to express in the short film, you may leave your idea below or let me know, at least I'll will contact you later !!

this is the chances for you to make your story become something that everyone would know them and make sure the audience will have some lesson to be learnt. 

adios and have a great time watching WhiteBlood 

ENJOY !!